[ It takes a bit. She scrubs her eyes a few times and tries to force herself to reread the rest of his message to answer once she's subsided into quiet hiccuping tears. ]
I'm sorry. I didn't mean to lecture you... it just feels so unfair. You did your best for us, and this still kept happening. Maybe today I really did understand that some of the people here don't even care as long as they can still get what they want from it.
[ She's not saying Merlin died for people who didn't deserve it. But she's definitely feeling some kind of way. ]
I do know what you mean, though. I'll use whatever it takes to keep moving forward. I still have a little here left to protect. And I really don't want to let you down. You saw in my memory, didn't you? The worse things get, the more it means that I just have to give everything I have.
[ After all! There's less and less to lose. ]
And, thank you. For being upset about Eros on my behalf. You're a good friend, Merlin.
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I'm sorry. I didn't mean to lecture you... it just feels so unfair. You did your best for us, and this still kept happening. Maybe today I really did understand that some of the people here don't even care as long as they can still get what they want from it.
[ She's not saying Merlin died for people who didn't deserve it. But she's definitely feeling some kind of way. ]
I do know what you mean, though. I'll use whatever it takes to keep moving forward. I still have a little here left to protect. And I really don't want to let you down. You saw in my memory, didn't you? The worse things get, the more it means that I just have to give everything I have.
[ After all! There's less and less to lose. ]
And, thank you. For being upset about Eros on my behalf. You're a good friend, Merlin.